Well maybe all I want is to burn it down.
I could be kidding myself making all this sound.
And maybe all that I'm doing is killing time,
since killing myself would be over the line.
I know I'm selfish when I talk about suicide,
and just because I don't mean it don't make it a lie.
But when I get sick I cling to my life.
So either I'm not done, or I'm just scared to die.
Do something different if you wanna make it big.
Don't you know that dying is overdone?
But if you're not trending yet then you might as well call it quits,
cuz it's hard to be seen when you're unheard of.
It's true I make the worst out of every word,
I've forgotten every syllable of kindness I've heard.
But if I'm weak in the night, I'm strong when I rise,
full of nightmares of failure to hide inside.
What've you got if you're just who you are?
There's a million of you but none have made it very far.
So go ahead and give up, blend in with the crowd,
there's no way to make noise when everybody's so loud.
All that I've got is what i've learned up to now,
I think most of it's wrong but I'll keep going anyhow.
I do what I do, I am what I am, it might not sell, but it's no different in the end.
So maybe all I'm doing is burning it down.
I could be just killing time making all this sound.
But when I start to feel sick I cling to my life,
so either I'm just scared or I'm not ready to die.